Activist stress dream

5/8/25 Yesterday I woke up with my heart pounding from the quintessential activist stress dream. I was supposed to participate in a big, complicated civil disobedience with multiple parts but when I got there it was chaotic. I didn't know the scenario, and the other participants were all strangers and we were in a rush to get to the location. When we got there it was an old abandoned factory, and there was an ominous feeling. It started to become clear that some parts of the action were not non-violent, and just as I was standing outside the building considering that, there was an explosion somewhere inside. For a moment, I was frozen, torn between my commitment to the action and my instinct to get the hell out of there. And then I ran. When I woke up, three cats were staring at me with concern.

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